29th January 2013
One month ago, I was thinking of
how you would give me surprise and celebrate my birthday with me. I
never never thought that 1 month later, I will be celebrating my
birthday alone in a resort far away from you. I missed you so much. The
more i tried to run away from you, the more i think of you.
I
have been thinking and thinking and thinking. What I should do? What I
can do? What I should have done earlier and not done yet? What have I
learned in this relationship? And how can I get out from it? How to
overcome this and move on? All this questions just keep popping in my
mind. But I just realised that it's already too late. There's nothing I
can do now.
If
there is anything I can do, I can only wish you happiness. I wish you
can find happiness in him. I hope he can take good care of you. I hope
he can forever be by your side and care for you. I hope he accompany you
dance class, accompany you to cooking class, accompany you swim and
accompany you to do the things you like. This are the things I never
have the chance to do even if I wanted to do it now for you. It's just
too late.
God is very kind to me, and the bracelet I
wore actually helped a little. At least, I manage to see you one last
time. That is the best I can ask for my birthday and it actually came
true. When I saw you again after so many weeks, I just felt the sense of
intimacy and love with you. It's like the love we had when I first saw
you. It never disappeared. I realise that every time I see you, it's the
same feeling of love every time. And when I didn't see you, that
feeling just grow and keep growing until a point, it became tears and
just keep rolling, every time i think of you.
I just
want to let you know, no matter how far you are from me, no matter how
distant our hearts are, mine will always be close to you. I will always
and forever love you. And be your guardian angel until you found the
love of your life and happily get married. This is my promise to you
that I will keep forever.
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