20th Day of Recovery

I have said too much until now, I am lost of words on how to describe my situation. Things are still the same, work, relationship, friends, family, colleagues. The only things I am really concern now more is the things happening around my work place.

Tomorrow hopefully will be a beautiful day for me. And hope for you too since it's the last day of work but for me, it's an off day. But I still need to go for a meeting in the morning before I can finally relax and enjoy the rest of my friday and weekend.

Hope things are going fine with you there. I think you must be very happy now and maybe never regret with the decision you make about leaving me. If you are happy, then it's ok. I will be happy from you and continue with my present life now. I am quite comfortable now with my life although I believe that with you around, it would actually be perfect. I still think back of our happy moments together most of the time. Really misses it so so much. Everything we do, the laughter we had before we sleep. The way we hug each other and how I comfortably lie on your side. Miss all that.

Anyway, as long as you are happy, then I won't care much actually. Love you always and forever as usual. I will never stop saying all this words to you at the end of my every sentence. Take care and be happy always. Hope your health is getting better now and you are better than before.

Love you always baby Ashley.

The end of 19th Day - Scary VAMPIRE!!!

It's another day gone without you by my side. Although everything keeps reminding me of you but I still can live my life as usual now. Getting more use to it although misses you so damn much. Worked till very late today until 9.30pm.

Some creepy incident scared me to death just now in the pantry around 8.30pm. About 8 like that, everyone in the office is gone except me, still working. Then I heard some sounds in front which makes me really curious. I thought somebody was out there in the front reception. So i just called out and see if anybody responded. NO ONE!

Then after that, I keep hearing the sound again coming from the front. From my instinct, I just walk to the direction of that sound and trying to figure what the hell it was. And right in the middle of my office, the sound came from above the ceiling in the ventilation system. OMG! The sound keeps moving around, and definitely, there is something inside which I don't know what is it. I thought it's just a mouse or something else. So I don't care much and continue walking back to my place and work.

Around 8.30, I am thirsty and so coincidentally, my pantry switch for the light was out of order. So I can't turn on the lights. But there is this little light from the office that shines thru the pantry. But it's still in the darkness. While walking towards the refrigerator, I saw something moving on the floor. And immediately it squeak so loud that it made me jump up and got a big shock!! I don't know what it was that time as it's whole body is curled up and I thought it was a frog or toad. But it squeak again and move. This time with it's wing open. I quickly open my handphone torch and shine to it. To my surprise, it was a little vampire (bat). Scary right. I ignore it quickly and just go back to my place to work without taking any water.

And suddenly this thing just fly out from the pantry into the open office. Got shocked again. But the vampire can't move much as i think it was injured. So, slowly, I take something and pushed it out to the main door and outside the office and leave it there. It took me 15 minutes to do so. Here is the photo below on the little vampire.

But anyway, it just scared me up at night as this creature is so black in colour in the dark while in the pastry just now.

Ok. Done talking for now. Really tired and need to get some rest for some adventure tomorrow. Friday will be a big adventure for me again. Going to some sight seeing with my friend. Take the day off on Friday from all the work and things that happen to me since the beginning of this year.

Baby, I hope you had a great day today both at work and with your love ones. Hope you enjoy yourself. I miss you so much and every night to be honest, while hugging my booster, I always think of hugging you.

I love you so much baby. More than anything else in this world. Just want you to know that even time, and everyone else, couldn't remove my love to you. I will always love you forever. Take care, goodnight and have a sweet dreams. If you need anything, you know where to find me. I will came to you instantly.

19th Day of Recovery

Good morning my beloved baby Ashley... Today is really a quiet day in the office. Everyone went to another department's event in KL. A good day for me to do my own things and read thru some legal documents. Now I have to be involved in this and read more legal documents to equip myself in this knowledge and know what my right is as a citizen of Malaysia.

I try to make my life as interesting as possible, meeting many people, try to open more doors to different possibilities and try to open my heart as well. But I can't. I just know that all those girls, just remind me of you. I can't get over you at all. You are still and always will be the only girl I love. Like I say, I remember the pain you went thru with me and I remember everything that we went thru together. Those feelings are real. And it can never be erase. I will never hurt another girl again for the same reason I hurt you. If can, I just want to compensate on the things I have done wrong to you. If can't, I will just wish you happiness in your life just like what I am doing now.

Have a good working day today. Hope it's productive. Long time never heard any complains from you. This morning, in the radio, I heard our favourite song again. I wonder if you hear all this songs, will it still reminds you of me and our memories?

Anyway, baby, I love you very much and forever. I will never leave you alone when you need me. Just give me a call, I will come straight to you from wherever and whoever I am with. Take care and be safe always.

The end of 18th Day - Jack the Giant Slayer

I'm home. It's already 1am++. Feel sleepy now. After bath will go sleep... Had a long dinner with my friend today. After that we watched Jack the Giant Slayer. Had cordon bleu as dinner. It was awesome although the chicken was a bit too much. Can't finish off 2 piece of it.

The movie was great. I think you must have watched it with him probably. If not, you should go and watch it. Work we can never finish. Remember baby, you need to relax yourself and not to worry too much about your work ok. I know it is very stress for you as you have too many things to cover, but always remember, I will always and forever have your back.

I may have lead back my single life and looking fine with it but my heart still loves you very much. You know this. You felt it too. I can let go of you to be with someone else, but I can never let go of you from my heart.

I will always love you forever and this is promise from my earlier messages to you and I will keep it to prove it to you that in this world, true love do exist.

Goodnight and have a sweet sweet dreams. Long time never hug you to sleep. I only can hug my booster now everyday thinking that it was you. I love you always and forever ever you will remain in my heart.

Take care my love.....

18th Day of Recovery

My life now is about the battle to survive and through all this obstacles that never failed to find me all the time. Battling through our love life is already tough but now I have to go through a tough and complicated legal procedures that both my bosses initiate. It has given me tremendous stress nevertheless and I just hope all this will be over soon.

Work has been much and stress for me as since the beginning with many things to cope. I just need more time to relax and think for myself. It's 1500 now and after awhile, I will release myself from this crazy office and just head off to a dinner and maybe movie with my friends.

I need more time of my own!!! Baby, how I really wishes that you were still with me now. At least, I believe things would be far better than now. I am sure that I can go through this better with you around. But of course, without you now, I still need to fight thru this crazy battle.

How are you today?? How is your sales actually? Hope that your work is doing really fine and your relationship with him is going stable and better. I believe you are very happy now.

Maybe you no longer observe my blog and view it regularly. But it's good in a way. I will still update it daily when my heart still has you in it. I will never stop.

I love you always and forever. Hope that you are happy always and stay healthy.

Take care my love...

The end of 17th Day - Scary politics and legal lawsuits

Baby Ashley, if possible, always avoid this type of conflicts of interest in an international organisation. Especially with different bosses of different nationality. The result could be disastrous in the end and involves too many different parties.

Now, I really need to be careful in the things I wrote here. I can't do much now. I really hope you can keep this blog a big secret just between the 2 of us forever. It is very important.

Have a good night sleep. I will be very busy thinking of my next step on how to handle all this properly and in a good manner.

Always remember this, I may have done things wrong to you in the past, but nevertheless, I still love you very much and will always think of you and pray for you and your family. I never forget the smile you gave me when I first saw you.

I love you always and forever. Goodnight and sweet dreams. Please take care of yourself and never look back on me anymore. You deserve a much better guy.

17th Day of Recovery

Baby Ashley, so many things happening on  me about the office politics. I am really stress. it has went into the highest level now and both my 2 big bosses have filed a suit against each other.

I can't say more now as things are being checked, conversations recorded, movements monitored and a lot of things going on right now with my company. They are both involving me which freaks me out as I am just a small potato in my organisation. I have no idea why they both wanted to resort to such ways to pull me into their own wars.

Today, I received weird messages, scary messages, you are lucky baby, that you have left me and be with him. I don't want to get you involve in this. They are attacking my personal life now. This is the most I can say in this blog. I just wish I could talk to someone whom is not my colleague about this.

I love you so much baby even though we have broken up. I still wish you happiness. Hope things are going really well with you and him. I am really happy for you. True love if you know, is all about giving and never receiving. And often it is painful. This is what I am experiencing now but I am really happy for you sincerely.

I love you always and forever. Take care ya baby. I am worried about your safety. Make sure at night, let him drive you around.