67th Day of Recover

Here I am again, after 1 month, writing on this blog. I thought I will be able to recover from the pain of losing you. But clearly not. After so many days and keep counting, my heart is still bleeding.

I just blocked you on my whatsapp. And don't plan to update anything on my walls anymore in google+. What will you feel about me? I promise myself not to be in the same darkness and position few months back. I promise myself to be stronger and tougher.

Even if you're not willing to be with me, and chooses him again, it doesn't matter. I believe I am strong enough to move on and enjoy my life.

Since you have chosen him again, I hope you both can live happily ever after and hope he changes for you too. You disappoint me when you said you misses me so much but ended up choosing him again when you had the opportunity to leave. Maybe it is love and you are touched by his sincerity. But you had a good reason to back you up which is responsibility. You said even if you're not happy, even you don't love him, you will still be with him. Until you can't stand. But when will that be? It's good to be responsible and I have decided to step down from being a third party.

I will search for my own life and happiness. While wishing you all the best in your dreams, relationship and career. Sometimes in life, it's all about the choices you make. Not fate. Like I have said to you, I only believe in fate once when it brought us together. Then it is our decision to maintain or to destroy it.

God brought and connected our life, and completed our puzzle. We decided to be together. In the end, it's all our decision on whether we are together, break up, or coming back together. It's not fate anymore because fate has done it's job. The rest is up to us. You have made your decision and I will honor and respect it.

I hope you have a good life with him. Maybe there's something in him that makes you stay.

I am going out tonight to just relax myself with some friends. I just want to find back myself and be happy.

Forgive my selfishness... I am sorry...

38th Day of Recovery

Morning. I guess both our holidays were not as smooth and happy as we both thought it will be. I never knew about all the problems you're having and never intend to be part of your problem. I guess part or not most of it is my problem. I started to buy you luxury brands because I know you love it. I started to chat with you more often which causes all this. I'm very sorry. I will not send anymore messages to you. I will still update this blog because I feel that I tried very hard to recover but in the end, I still love you so much.

I feel that it's very unfair to her now when I'm thinking of you. I never touched her. Never. And she feels weird about it and keep trying when we are in Port Dickson yesterday. We started too quick without me getting over you and now, I don't know how to leave without hurting her. I guess I'm really a bad guy after all. An asshole that never stop hurting girls feeling. Like how much I have hurt you. Me and her is totally different than me and you. I never told her I have a pending Japan trip and keep paying money postponing the dates, paying the penalty. I have it twice now. I too feel like giving up but just don't know how. I can't go trips with her especially to the places I have never been before and my dream places. Somehow I just want to go with you.

I plan to go Paris alone and buy you a Chanel bag still for your birthday present. I have promise you and I have to keep it. I will go in June during your birthday.

You and I, we are actually a nearly perfect couple except for our slight differences in character but knowing it now and even changing it now is useless. I never control her outings with friends and always ask her to go out with them. I will just fetch her afterwards to meet for a while. I spend money on her but she is like you, have strong character which makes me accept her in the first place I think. But that's not love. I knew it now and have no way at the moment to go back.

Don't blame yourself for the person you are now. No one is to be blame even yourself. All of us are born to be happy. We just need to find the right guy and girl in life and get married. My love forever is going to be you and marriage, I'm only thinking of you. I feel sorry to her even by writing this to you now but this is exactly how I feel.

Every girl is meant and born to enjoy life. That's why I pamper and loved you so much. Not because I have lots of money to spend, or because I know you like branded things. But it's actually because of the attitude and character you have. I know that in the future if I'm really in difficulty, you will be there got me and take care of me and my family. That's why just because of this, I will give you the best and secondary to myself. If you see, I never treat myself with any branded things even in London. I spend most of my money on you items. I have no regret even until today. I still believe you are the right girl for me. But now, you're with him and I can only wish and hope you're happy.

My parents, when talk to me always ask me to do 1 thing which until now, I still fail to do. Find a good gf, get married and treat her very nice. My father values what my mum has done for our family. And I value you that much as well for the things you have gone thru with me. I will give you only the best i can afford. If I have money, whatever you want I will get it for you.

Remember, I am always here listening to you. I never leave you although we never see each other and I can't physically be next to you to accompany you when you cry but I will be here. I hope you will stay strong and overcome this. I will not leave you and you're definitely not alone. You will never be alone crying in the dark because I will come with a torchlight.

I know you love him a lot now. And I hope you can enjoy your trip in July with him and his family. You will need to tell your parents too that time. Hope you guys will be able to tie the knot. I sincerely wished you and him happiness.

I love you forever and always. I know it's a strong sentence to say but I really mean it. This is true love. Sometimes we are not meant to be with our true love but we can only wish them happiness with someone else. It's really painful doing it but it's the best for now.

I will not message you on whatsapp now. My good morning and good night will only appear on my google plus post just like you.

Have a great working day for you and hope you will forget all the problems you're facing now and take it as an opportunity to test your love to him.

35th Day of Recovery

Today is a crazily busy day for me since morning. That's why I don't even have the time to update this blog. But I am happy that we are keeping in touch. That you no longer hate me. Although we are not together anymore by fate, but I am satisfied with what I have now.

Our communication like this is good enough for me. Me and my her now started in an unexplained and sudden environment. I don't know what I am doing at all. But don't worry I said before I will never hurt another girl the same way I hurt you. No other girl will feel the pain that you have felt. And I will go thru this pain with you again in the future if you ever going to face it alone without him.

Just remember this, take care of yourself and be tough. Guys can say anything they want when they are coming after you, it's their commitment after, that makes it all count. I hope you understand what I am trying to say. I hope he is the man for you because you loved him and I know it. Me and her now, I don't know what we are going thru at the moment. But it's definitely different than when I am with you. But don't worry, I won't hurt her.

I still love you and miss you so much. Somehow, this is a lifetime commitment. You ask me not to wait for you, but can I really do it? Only time will tell. But I definitely still hope and pray that our path will one day crosses each other and we can once again be a lovely couple.

Take care and for now, remember to be happy always. Stay healthy and always smile. A happy heart can cure many disease and sickness and also mental stress.. I know you can do it. Feel it in your heart that I am always next to you even though physically I am very far..

I will be having my vacations in the weekend and taking Monday off as well.. You have a nice weekend too and enjoy your days with him..

34th Day of Recovery

Good morning to you.. I have read your post.. I hope you are feeling better now. Yesterday I am with her but just to fetch her back to her house. She doesn't drive. She is not staying with me. I am just too tired when I got home that I fall asleep straight after taking my bath. I wanted to reply to you while driving but I am driving too fast.

Anyway, you must drink more healthy fruit juice and I know you seldom drink water. Sure dehydrated. Keep yourself healthy please. And if we had the chance, we can go have laksa again. Or please, laksa is your favourite, ask him to accompany you go eat. We use to eat every single week at Seapark. I miss those days together. Suddenly think back, I feel that everything in exchange of what I have now is totally not worth it. If I can have another exchange, I would leave everything behind just to get back the life I use to have few months back. That is the life I always wanted and happy with.

I hope you can sleep well and not waking up everyday around 4 - 6 am. This is totally not healthy. There are things that we can never control and especially dreams. But since you can dream of him, I am sure you have fall for him and only that reason is strong enough for your to cry for him. You don't cry if you feel no pain and you feel pain when you're in love. I don't want to speculate about this too much as it may just be my own thought. But nevertheless if you really like him, probably just like yourself, he also need some space of his own. Maybe you should just allow it since it's just once or twice a week with his friend, whom I know he is quite close with. Different people engage in different types of relationship and that's also one of the reason why I say we are both fortunate. We both had perfect life with our parents approving until unwanted incidents happen that ruins everything. It's my fault.

I have also told you before that when a girl is at his weakest point, any guy would do anything just to win her heart and that includes giving all his time for her, be there for her, pamper her, etc but when together, it is the link or connection that you both have created that will make your relationship last. Find back that connection, find back that link, and find the reason why you loved him and accepted him. I don't know how I treated you last time, but I will give you all my spare time and none left for other girls. You know that. I have never lied or have any secrets with you before. In our times together, I have never had any other girls in my mind except for you.

I am not sure about him but also maybe because of his age. Like I always say, a guy who crosses the 30th mark will find stability in his life, career but not relationship. This is the best time to look around, play around and in the end, single forever. But of course, there are some exception and I hope he is the guy for you since you have chosen him.

Ok, spend too much time typing this. I have so many crazy work to finish. I am going holiday this weekend. I really need time off from my crazy work and less sleep and hope that I can sleep till very late, eat, and the have some walk, movie and then go back sleep again. Really tired. I hope you too can go on a holiday with him and just enjoy yourself.

To be honest, I know our time is not up, but I am praying and hoping everyday that one day in the future, god knows when, maybe a year? maybe 2 years? maybe never? but anyway, hope that our path will cross again.

I love you always and forever.. have a nice day and please no matter what happen, i am behind you.. so smile always. I want to see a fighting girl behind a weak and soft heart. I want to see you resurface stronger each time. I am changing as well. I hope you too.. Take care and have a productive day..

33rd Day of Recovery

I am very happy that you have finally smiled. Even if I didn't do much impact on your life now but being able to generate a smile on your face is a big thing to me.

I hope you will carry on this smile and never let anything else take it away from you. I will always be here for you. We both know deep inside how we felt about each other and although fate tear us apart right now, I believe that in the future, we will be truly happy.

If we are really meant to be together, our path will definitely cross again and I hope that time, we will never ever let each other go again. What we can do now is to just live our life as happy as we can because right now, there are certain things that we can't go back. Just like the relationships that we are both having now.

Take care and we will have chance again for the lovely laksa, prawn mee and your favourite fruit juice.

32nd Day of Recovery

There is a reason why I don't want to update my blog. I wanted you to forget me. I don't want you to continue reading my pathetic blog trying to forget you. I wanted you to move on happily. Until I decided to visit my blog and found out that you are blogging too starting from 15th March onwards.

I read all your post over and over again, use google translation and use voice to read out your message to me.

All those if, and if and if and if.. Are just too late now. If I had known this earlier, I would not have accepted her. But it's too late now. I waited and waited until I know it's impossible when you said you are already with him.

Yes, I said that I will love you forever and until now, it's still the same. I never told her I LOVE YOU this 3 words. Never. I never call her baby, bao bei like how I called you. I only call her dear.. which I never use that on u.. I feel like punching myself so badly that all this has to happen in this way. But reality is still reality and we both have to live on it.

If time really can come back, I would do the same to u.. Hold u so tightly and will never say break up or let u go ever again, even if it's the end of the world. I will die together with u..

Some feelings are just meant to be hidden until our path cross again in the future. U r with another guy and I am with another girl unexpectedly. I never say I will forget you and never say I will not love you, but there are some things in life that I can't control just like u.. If u hadn't been with him or waited until now, maybe we will both be happily together. I don't blame u.. It's the environment that causes us both this enormous pain..

I cried in the office while reading all your post after messaging u that I will go for the kimchi ramen.. I just decided to visit my blog before I leave the office but notice all this. I thought I really can move on but actually the pain of knowing all ur unhappiness and sadness is even worst.. I just hope all this never happen..

Let us be strong for our future.. Nobody knows what will happen. Maybe our path will cross again.. But for now, I want u to promise me to live happily with him.. Time will tell if he is the one or not.. If we are meant to be in the end, we will.. Just like our love.. A thousand years.. I can promise u it will be forever..

You are always very important in my heart. Far more important than anyone else in this world..

I love you forever and always.. Eternal thousand years of love to my beloved baby Ashley...

PS: We will definitely have the chance to eat laksa and prawn me again together. I will bring you.. Hopefully before I leave..

Just remember, some truth are always meant to be hidden. Just like you and me.. Just like how much u said u loved me but in the end, chooses him.. I still believe in u.. but there is no turning back.. I can just pray strongly that our path will cross in the future.. I love you always..

The end of 28th Day - Last post & hidden love forever

Before I start writing this post. I just want you to know that this will be the last post you see. And don't visit this blog anymore. You are right. I shouldn't post anymore on this blog. I will listen to you.

Sadly, the things that you say, is true and I already knew it long ago. We may not be with the person whom we love the most and in the end, we end up being with somebody whom we might not truly love. Today, she hold my hand suddenly and I guess, there is nothing for me to explain further here.

No one knew how I felt about you, about us and I guess, only you know the truth behind everything that happens. I have to take responsibility on the things that happen and accept the fate that we have both gone our different path and own ways. In the future, if our path crosses again, then it's good. But if it's not, then all the best to you and myself.

You know me, I will never give up until I know it's too late and when you started with him exactly a month ago, I knew that instant, it's too late. I gave up that instant. But just my heart is the one holding on and up till now, I have to admit how much I really loved you. But reality and truth is always painful and often time we have to face it openly. I never cried since you started with him. But today, tears roll down for the first time in 1 month. I know, this last post will be the last link between us and after this, we will both go our own ways and may never meet again.

I truly appreciate that you have been loyal and viewing my post every single day. And I am very happy for that. But things that have happen can never be undone.

I just hope you will be truly happy with him and so am I. I may never love the girl like how much I loved you, but things are just the way it is. Sometimes, it's beyond our control.

I can just say 1 thing before I end this. I have never regretted the moment I saw you in the bus. And you will be forever the only girl I loved so much and wanted to marry with. I hope that when you are getting married in the future, please do tell me. That's my only wish and hope from you.

Before I stop, I have a song for you and hope you like it. It's not a thousand years. That will forever be our song and only us. Let us hide our love deep within ourselves. Our love, can be considered true love.A love that is hard and rare to find. A love that may not even exist. But I found it. And it's with you.

Goodbye my love. May our love last forever deep deep deep deep deep inside our heart. I will always and forever love you for a thousand years.

Do not view this blog anymore. Move on, live on, and be happy everyday. Goodnight and have a sweet dream baby.

PS: everything can be thrown away but just 1 thing I can never throw. Daughter.... I will pass this to your friend and throw everything else. Don't worry. I am not going to contact your friend again after I pass daughter to her.

28th Day of Recovery

Good morning to you.. Time really flies right. It's already 28 days now since you are together with him. Sometimes, I am still wondering, am I still dreaming? But reality is reality and you are right in some ways that if I keep saying the same thing, I love you forever and always, can I really move on.

To be honest, moving on or not is not a big deal for me. Having another girl beside or not, is not my main priority. It's my life that I wanted to control now and not living in the previous darkness where shadows are always clouding and blocking my judgements.

We often live in a life that we can't control but just have to be responsible with the words we said or do. Just like what we have been going through now. Can we really go back? It will depends on fate in the future and how god has decided the path for us. Maybe in the end, we will live our separate ways but like you say, we have to be responsible and words are powerful. I know and learn about it as well. I have even experienced it badly few months ago. But my words stays as it is for now. Because that's what I felt now.

Whether or not I am able to move on, that's not something I can control now. Take care and enjoy your weekend. I will always love you and forever. Something that I have committed. Maybe I will be with someone whom I don't really love. But just like you, it's life. But I will never hurt another girl unless she is the one.

Have a nice day today and in the weekend as well. Take care of your health and remember that work is not everything. Target need to hit but health and stress level need to be taken care of.

The end of 27th Day - Questions, Should i?

Sigh.. Really tired for the past few days. Decided to get back early today to get a good rest as I don't think will be free during the whole weekend. Take Monday off as well to clear my leave and do something. 3 days of free days. Planning for some things to accommodate all the 3 days away from KL.

Just now in the evening, I messaged you regarding your life with him and received no response. Guess by that, we all know what's the answer. Just keep it quiet and silent between us and others.

This question keep come spinning around my mind yesterday and today.. Should I? Or should I not? Should I wait? Or should I go forward? Should I express? Or should I keep quiet? I think I will still few more days to keep up with my stand about this issue.

Anyway, I have no energy to blog anymore. While typing, my eyes are closing. Sleep really less this few days and in the last weekend.

Goodnight my beloved baby. I won't message you anymore regarding you and him. No worries ok. Just be happy and everything will be fine.

I love you always and forever. Sweetdreams. And please take good care of yourself.

27th Day of Recovery

Something unexpectedly happen today. Suddenly I received your message. But I think it's better not to talk about it. We both know actually why in the end, we have to live like this and unable to turn back. At least I understand it very clearly now.

It has been a very busy period for me now, fighting over various issues and work related matters. But life is never easy. I will continue to fight all the uncertainties to build up a better future for myself and the people around me.

To be honest, nothing concerns me more now except for your happiness. I just hope that you are happy being with him now. And not pretending or being with him because you don't have a choice and it's hard to reject because of the things he has done. Life is always about choices. But to be honest, sometimes, once a decision is made, it's really hard to go back...

I will respect your message and not to post anything about me and other girls in this blog. I don't know you have been following me so closely all this while I am especially shocked as to why you still wanted to view my blog but the questions don't need to be answered.

Guess, the things will need to be kept by me for the time being until you are ready to take them back. Like I always say, if I start in a relationship, I will be serious. If I didn't it must be because of certain reasons. I still love you so much and I can't be selfish in this and be unfair to other girls.

I love you very much. Hope you are happy. Your happiness is ultimately mine as well. Take care please. In the end, we will both go thru our own life until our path cross again in the future.

The end of 26th Day - Very happy night

Again just got home. I don't mind getting home so late every day. I feel that my life now has beginning to feel alive again. At least no more sorrows, no more heart pain, no more stressing, no more thinking negatively about love but it's like love is in the air again. But of course, I just feel happy but not in love with another girl.

Recently got a really young girl whom I got to know and we just hang out in the last 2 night. I feel comfortable and happy with her. But like I always say to you, I will never start a relationship unless I can totally forget about our love and also waiting for the day when my heart will be open again. I feel that she will wait for me and she kinds fond of me. This is because of the action and also the things she do. But overall, I am really happy. At least I am not crying alone in the room anymore.

We had a nice dinner tonight with her friends as well. And then watch movie with her and late night chill out with her friends together. It was fun. And I now understand why you hated me so much for blocking all your freedoms. Anyway, pass is pass, I just want to live in the present and building up my future.

I love you always baby. You will forever be the only girl I love so much. Until my heart can open itself again to the public or to another girl that can steal it back from you. But now, still only you..

Good night baby. Hope you have a sweet dream and happy being with him.

26th Day of Recovery

Good morning my baby Ashley.... Hope you will have a bright and lovely Wednesday. Today is office day for me, I guess. No meetings scheduled except for the meeting with my big boss later in the afternoon. But have so many pending things to do. Finance is chasing me for my overtime claim which I have not done since the last 3 months, and other claims for my trips as well. So many receipts.

Anyway, I guess things have been going normal for the both of us now. Life seems to be moving forward as it seems. Of course for you, it has been done much earlier. But for me, I am just starting to catch up with life since all the unanticipated events that has been happening to me in the last few months.

But to be honest, ever since you left me, I am really in the darknest.. Things seems to be coming very negatively at me and the whole world is like crushing down on me badly. I am badly injured both physically and also mentally.

I got to go now. Busy with something else.

Love you baby as always. Hope you have fun today at work.

The end of 25th Day - Oz the Magician

I feel so sleepy now. Just got back home and already 2am. Need to sleep as tomorrow will be another tiring night. Lately, i just go out almost every night. Crazy.. Guess will stop it maybe for 2 nights as this weekend will be hell of crazy partying and going through roller coasters. Finally, found someone that are not afraid of roller coasters, we will be having fun hopefully in one of the theme parks during the weekend.

Btw, watched Oz the Magician with my friend. No doubt, that movie was really good and the effects and also the background used was really great. Although not as good as lord of the rings but still worth the watch. At least to me, it is far better than snitch. The movie was quite long. I think around 2.5 hours.

Really tiring now. I have to stop before I fall asleep on my table. Tomorrow will be a long night again but will rest on Thursday and to have a long sleep.

Goodnight my beloved baby Ashley. Hope you had a good night today. I love you always and forever.

Do take care of yourself and your health. I heard from the MBG in tropicana that you no longer buy any fruits there. Anyway, even if you don't visit there anymore, at least ask him to buy some fruits for you.

Sweetdreams ya... I am going to bath and sleep now...

25th Day of Recovery

What a hectic and busy day at work today... Meeting after meeting. Just manage to get home. No time to even touch my laptop today. That's why can't post anything earlier today. My phone keep having messages coming in from WeChat and have random people keep adding me.

Hmmm. Guess the 7 eye and 2 eye that I am wearing on my wrist is giving some fruitful results after all. But anyway, no time for relationship and definitely no heart left for that unless my heart is able to open up again. Will be meeting up new friend tonight and having a movie. Watching Oz the magician tonight. Very tired though. Hopefully it will be a great night.

I love you very much still. Heart still as stubborn as ever. Never wanted to open for any other girl. Just keep locking itself and waiting for you. Although it's virtually impossible. But anyway, if you need me, I am always here.

Love you always and forever. Have a nice day and night and hopefully you are happy with your life and relationship ya!!

The end of 24th Day - Work & special dream

Today as mentioned in my earlier post was full of hectic work load and unnecessary stress created by people who just don't bother much about us. But what to do? We live in a reality world where things are just build and design like this.

Went to the night market at SS2 today after work around 8++ and as usual, circled few rounds before can even find a parking slot. Never come back to this place for some time now. But suddenly really craving for the lotus soup. When I finally found a parking lot, it was nearly 9pm but luckily there is still lotus soup left for me. But of course, my favourite economy rice is gone. So I tried the tomyam fried rice from your favourite stall where you use to order the tomyam noodle. To be honest, the fried rice is just so so but the soup was extremely clear and sour. Nice though but too sour...

Anyway, after dinner, just had a walk for awhile and went back home to rest. While chatting with my friends on Wechat and whatsapp, suddenly fall asleep. And I had a really short dream, it was about a girl, whom I can't really see clearly who she was. But she was waving from me in a distance where light was shining so brightly behind her. Which obviously makes her look really dark in front that covers her face completely. But from the shape of her body, it looks like you although I can't be 100% certain. But anyway, when I walk nearer and nearer to her, she seems to be either getting further away from me, or she is just too far that I can't even reach with just walking. So I decided to run. But strangely, no matter how fast I run, I can't seem to reach her. That makes me so anxious. I continued to ran and ran and ran. And suddenly, I fall and that's when I woke up. I don't know what's the significance of this dream. Just to share what just happen to me.

Love makes people dream and makes people fantasies. But at least, signs are showing me positively that moving on is good for both you and myself. For you, it may be the best gift from me, to just leave you alone. I am doing just perfectly fine now, I think.

I am very tired now and just wanted to have a good sleep. Will watch a movie with another friend tomorrow. Guess this time will watch oz the magician. Should be a good movie to watch this time.

Goodnight and sweet dreams to you. Hope things are going smoothly between you and him. I will love you always and forever and my heart and soul, still longs for you tender hug and kisses. Misses them so much.

24th Day of Recovery

Shit!!! Damn busy today. No time to even rest. Keep talking, walking around and when have time, just need to reply all my emails and attend on pending documents. OMG!!!!

I wonder how's your work? Getting more busier I think with all the targets you need to hit and also the accounts you serve. But guess he is a big help to you in this regards which I will never be.

Life is getting good and better for me now. Ever since the first day you left me. I hope thru time, my heart will be able to open up again just like you. I don't know if you still views this blog or not but even if you didn't, I guess, it means nothing to me anymore. I am getting used to all this silence from your side now and beginning to feel back the life I use to had before I meet you. When I am engage in a relationship, my love means everything to me, maybe too much that when I lost you, it feels like the world is ending. I just realised how stupid I am in thinking this way. In single life, I enjoyed a lot. But not as much as when I am with you when I can actually see my future.

But anyway, recovery seems good for me now and it is getting better as the time goes forward. I will still remember you and loved you because I still can't forget you. That's why I can't go for any girls now although i am seeing quite a number of them. This is the advantages of being single for me. I will never hurt another girl again like how I have hurt you. This is my stand since I meet you and my policy that I will never change.

I love you always baby. Take care and have a nice day today. I wanted to drink lotus soup so much. Maybe will head down to SS2 to get the soup before going back home.

The end of 23rd Day - Lucky Sunday

Hie Baby!! Woke up quite late today and head to lunch with my friend as mention earlier in 1 Utama. Arrive quite late nearly 2pm with a long wait for a car park. After about nearly 20 minutes, manage to find a parking lot at the top floor. Was late for lunch and my friend is already waiting for me.

After lunch at Kim Gary, went to the MPH Bookstore to get some magazine and some financial books to read when free. Spend about nearly 2 hours there.

After that, we went to Starbucks to sit down and there is when the surprise and my luckiest moment happen. While buying my favourite ice mocha, suddenly after payment, the cashier told me that I am one of the lucky customer to have won a free drink in Starbucks. Normally in a day, the cashier will auto generate the lucky winner which came with the receipt of purchase. And I am the first one for that day. I am extremely lucky as I seldom won this kind of prizes before.

But anyway, I am beginning to feel the changes in my life. The positive energies are flowing strongly within my body and all the external factors and environments are improving tremendously at a fast pace. I am very happy with this. After the drinks at the Starbuck and reading the magazines I have purchase, we went for a dinner and then went back straight home. It's really a relaxing outing today. Not much walking and just relax.

How was yours baby Ashley? Did you enjoy your weekend and Sunday? I will message you soon, to give you the things that I still owe. I guess won't be seeing you but just drop it with you. You are happy with your life and I don't want anything else to ruin that happiness. At the same time, I am also getting along well with my life. Although i still love you so much, but there are things that is always and forever best be left alone. Just like our feelings. My feelings for you.

I will always love you forever and ever. Goodnight and sweetdreams. Hope that you will stay healthy always and take good care of yourself. True love will always be with me and you.

23rd Day of Recovery

Woke up so late today. Already nearly 1.30pm. And was late for my lunch with a friend. Have to rush now and head to my late brunch.

Baby Ashley, have a great Sunday ok. I have nothing much to write now. But when I got home, hopefully, there is some adventure today that I can share with you.

Hope you have fun with your boyfriend and your friends. I will love you always and forever. You will always stay in my mind.

Take care and remember to eat and drink healthy.

The end of 22nd Day - 4 Shopping to Malls

Finally I am back to my room after a tiring run today. It's nearly 5am now. Freaking freaking tired. My uni mate just called me during lunch time and give me1  hr to prepare for lunch and a crazy day outing. Went to Subang Bak Kut Teh to have our lunch and we had a really full one. Keep refilling the soup and I took 2 bowl of rice. After that, we went back to my place for me to change as we are playing ice skating later with her other friends as well. It was a crazy day I can say.

After went back to my place and change, we head to Tropicana Mall and although it was really far but actually I am craving for the fruit juice. So just went there with my friend. As usual, ask me where you are and she misunderstood my friend as my girlfriend. Very funny. I keep explaining but they just keep laughing and teasing me. My friends face got red but she knows. But anyway, they say you never came and buy the juice but saw you walking pass before once. Guess the fruit juice is not your favourite anymore. I can understand. People change.

Anyway, after buying the fruits and juice, we head to 1 Utama to get some stuff from there and to pass another stuff to my friend who is working there. After that, finally we head down to Sunway for the ice skating. I actually had 2 hours only in Sunway as I have to rush to Midvalley for an appointment with another friend at 8 pm. Really crazy rush. Had really great fun in Sunway with my uni friend and her friends. Tiring as well as I have to keep driving. Reach Midvalley around 8++ and met with my friend and had a really long chat. We even chatted after the mall is close until 12++. Then final destination, head down to my office with Cai to do some work and finally came back to my room now and updating my blog.

Sorry, didn't take any photos as my phone battery is draining really fast and I just keep trying to save my phone battery. Will take my camera out next time.

But anyway, how did you pass your day? I guess you must be pretty enjoying yourself as well. To be honest, how I wish that we could all join in this activities together. Especially with you around as part of my family. I am sure that it will really be a happening one and very happy. But too bad, things change and peoples change. Already accepted the fact.

Nevertheless, the same old closing sentence again. Hope you are not bored keep listening to this.

I will always love you forever and ever baby. Never in a day I have never thought of you. This blog will be the witness of my true love to you. And remember, true love always hurts and without it, you will never realise how much you really love a person. And true love is always about forgiving and happiness. As long as you are happy, then I am happy.

Goodnight and sweet dreams. Sunday will be another interesting adventure for me. Hope you have a good sleep and a great adventure when you wake up. Take care!!! Have more fruits please although you don't want to visit MBG. You can always make your own or ask him to bring you to somewhere else and do your own combination. Love you always...

22nd Day of Recovery

Good afternoon baby... Got a bit hangover from yesterday drinking at Skybar.. Woke up by the call from my university classmate asking me to bak kut teh in klang for brunch.. Damn crazy. But anyway, just agreed and here I am writing my new post and immediately after this, need to get ready, fetch her and drive all the way to Klang.

After this, going to head back to the office for a while with her to settle some of my work and then head off to another interesting adventure. I feel that life is really short, I have grieve enough and cried enough, it's really time, I do something for myself and be happy for it.

I love you baby!!! Nevertheless, I still wish you happiness with him.I miss the fruit juice in MBG in Tropicana especially. I have never been there since the last 1 month. Will visit there later. Because really craving for my favourite Apple, Orange and yoghurt.

I love you so much baby and will always do forever. Please take care of yourself and have an interesting weekend. I will keep you updated of my adventure later.

Have a nice day. Have fun.. Be happy and most importantly, if there is anything, I am always here for you.